Today..22 November, is my ex-best friends birthday. The only reason we're ex-best friend's is because of me. I've made mistakes and not fighting for our friendship is probably one of the biggest mistakes I've ever done. Of course I made new friends but still..I sometimes wish I hadn't done what I did. We were friends for 3 awesome years..Of course there always has to be some sort of drama in my life. We ended up going to the same secondary school and she was worried that we wouldn't be friends anymore. I told her that we would always be. I didn't keep my promise.
You see, she's an amazing person. And she's the kind of person that attracts popular people. I, on the other hand, am different. I attract the kind of people I know I can be normal with. We got into different classes and I started hanging out with my group more than with her group of people. I didn't really like her group of people. I mean, yes. Popularity. Which high school girl would turn down popularity...sub-conciously...Me. And.....I just let the friendship go because I felt more comfortable with my group more than hers. She's the best person I've ever known and I will never forget her.
It seems that she's been keeping contact with this other girl from our primary school. This other girl always wanted to be her best friend. Like she tried separating us from sitting together on many occasions and she was just annoying. And now, it seems like they're very close friends and.....IT fucking KILLS ME. It kills me to know that...I was that much of a terrible friend, that my friend confided in this other girl. But the only person to blame is me and I should start accepting that. I should not care anymore. I did apologize for being a terrible person and she accepted my apology and yet, I still don't feel right. I guess... I wish I had done things differently.. Even then, what is life if not for mistakes.
So Happy Birthday. You're 18. It'll be a good day :)
Farewell humans
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