So 2013. Hi. I don't think it's going to be a great year. I know I should be optimistic but there's just this feeling that this year is not going to be amazing. Yep. So I wrote something on word and I don't want to save it on my computer so I thought of posting it on here. So enjoy? or be depressed? lol whatves bro.... :S
Have you ever been on the outside? Have you ever seen them? Watched
them from afar? They seem happy but they hide secrets. Secrets that no one
could pretend to care about, and that is why they greet you with a sort of
fakeness. They can see that you’re trying to read them. They see that you’re
figuring them out. And there’s nothing they can do about it. They’re intimidated
by you. Your slightly awkward presence makes them uncomfortable. They think you’re
weird and the best thing about this thought of theirs is that you could care
less. Sometimes you think that watching them is creepy on your path but you
realize you’re not stalking them. You’re just watching them and learning the
ways of these humans. The way they talk and the way they walk. You learn and
study their movements when socializing with those who are more respected. You
wonder how they could possible know what to say, but then you realize that they
know because they’re not you. Not everyone is the same. You know that, but you
wonder why you can’t be like them. You wonder why you’re not accepted for being
you. You think that maybe there’s something wrong with you. But you pray and
hope that there are people out there who will try to accept you for you. People
who you get along with and people who can be yourself with. You don’t want to
have different versions of yourself. You just want to be you and you just want
to be accepted for you.
You try to write stories but let’s all face it, you’re a
hormone raging teenager. Most times, your head and mind is filled with boys and
sex and kisses. You wish you could just say no to these thoughts because not
only do they take up your time but they also depress you because you can’t
handle the fact that most people your age have done these things you can only fantasize
about. You listen to John Legend and you wonder why on earth there are no
people that are attracted to you. You think back to the past where there were
people who liked you but you didn't really like them. But all of these memories
are far away in the past. You know you shouldn't think about it but you do. The
only reason you do is to make yourself feel a bit better about yourself.
That was part 1? I don't know when I have more thought's I shall update. For now, have a pleasant year :)
