Everything needs a start and an end right? I mean, that's life? Is it? This is a question. I really would like to know. Cause the dreams that I love so much and crave for everyday were supposed to have stopped. If these dreams just pop out randomly, I might die of a terrible broken heart. You're not supposed to make me happy then as soon as I wake up, disappear.
It's disappointing, these dreams. They seem so real and I believe they are real and bringing me back to reality is like ripping my heart out of my chest. When the realization that these dreams were just mere dreams, I get so upset and that feeling that made me feel good, disappears and the hole in the pit of my stomach just becomes bigger and it feels cold and depressing. -_-
And then, I get over it. I mean, I spend the day being sad about it and then just going along with it. You get used to it i guess.
And that is that. :S
Valentines day is coming up peeps. Adam Levine and James Valentine said that everyday is Valentines day. They're so hot. The beard and long hair really works for James. #justsaying
I tweet nowadays. It's weird. Ok. Done.
Farewell, humans :)
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Short update :)
It's February 8th :D So far everything has been ok. Except for the emotional breakdowns and thinking to much about lots of things, I am fine :)
Valentine's Day is coming. Joyful! The plan for the day is to wake up at 10am and then watch tv/breakfast till about 11am? yep, and then I'll go on my laptop and watch.......I don't know. I'll figure it out. The whole day is going to be about me loving me cause I'm my own valentine, and I'm ok with that. I realized that loving myself plays a big part in me being who I am. I have started to try and dress more girlishly. I have to work on the way I carry myself. But to do that, I have to believe in the confidence that I fell is growing in me. I've been working out too :) so that also adds to why I actually look at myself in the mirror nowadays.
I think it was a week ago but one day, I woke up really sad. I woke up and thought about some things that I had done and things that I had gone through when I was younger. I wanted to talk to someone about it cause I felt so down. I felt so sad and a lack of energy and I just wanted to disappear into my bed. I wanted to disappear. I just disliked the things that I did and all these memories just re-ignited my hate towards a certain person. And the whole day was just a drag. But i got over it and I survived the day, so yay points to me. I am so hungry right now.
Ok, so that was an update.
Farewell humans, stay safe :)
Valentine's Day is coming. Joyful! The plan for the day is to wake up at 10am and then watch tv/breakfast till about 11am? yep, and then I'll go on my laptop and watch.......I don't know. I'll figure it out. The whole day is going to be about me loving me cause I'm my own valentine, and I'm ok with that. I realized that loving myself plays a big part in me being who I am. I have started to try and dress more girlishly. I have to work on the way I carry myself. But to do that, I have to believe in the confidence that I fell is growing in me. I've been working out too :) so that also adds to why I actually look at myself in the mirror nowadays.
I think it was a week ago but one day, I woke up really sad. I woke up and thought about some things that I had done and things that I had gone through when I was younger. I wanted to talk to someone about it cause I felt so down. I felt so sad and a lack of energy and I just wanted to disappear into my bed. I wanted to disappear. I just disliked the things that I did and all these memories just re-ignited my hate towards a certain person. And the whole day was just a drag. But i got over it and I survived the day, so yay points to me. I am so hungry right now.
Ok, so that was an update.
Farewell humans, stay safe :)
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