Today I be being random.
For those of you who live in a hole...actually,no. I live in a hole. It's a hole where all my secrets and dreams and talents are kept. It's a hole only I know of. Nobody is worth it enough to know of this hole.
Listen to A-team by Ed Sheeran. I didn't fall in love with it the first time i heard it. However I thought it suited my not so happy mood and how life is sometimes..not nice. Ya.. so listen to it.
I am a 9-gager. It's a fun site, with lots of awesome stuff. I'm the silent kind though. I like reading the posts. Never really put up anything. lol To day i thought of this.
"OMG! I'm so happy and excited that I got my period"- said a bunch of teenage sluts.
I know....it's not funny :( and that's why I DON'T post things on 9-gag. I thought of first going with -said no one ever...but its the 20th century... teenagers be having sex like they be drinking pepsi. LOL...sigh I'm so funny sometimes... Yes, I did just contradict myself. Well....yes.
oh and The Wanted. They are sexy. I'm such a girl..... God damn boy bands.... I love them dammnit! Maroon 5, The Wanted. sigh... love :)
Chemistry quiz tomorrow...sigh.
Well bye.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Every moment lasts forever...
Hello! Last Thursday was Maroon 5! I wish I had enjoyed it more. I don't know. Unlike last years one, this year...the excitement in me had worn off sooner than expected. Maybe it's my best friend couldn't come..or the fact that as soon as the concert ended a very irritating person made me angry. Ya. Well the day started off with going to college. All that was fine. But, I wasn't excited. I wasn't "OMG MAROON 5 TONIGHT!" I was more " Ya I'm going for Maroon 5...Ya I'm so happy i get to see them". Well whatever. SO we reached Shah Alam Stadium at 7 something then the line was soo long. :( We weren't really front. I wish I could have skipped college and gone to the stadium in the morning and waited there like a mad person. I would loved to have been in front. sigh. Well at 9 The Cab came out. I am proud to say that they were really awesome and that I managed to sing their songs #likeaboss :D
Then at about 9.45/9.50 Maroon 5 came out. They started of with Payphone. I loved it. I got so excited. Warning to anyone who decided to stand in front or behind me at a concert: If you stand behind me, I might jump and step on your toes. If you stand in front of me, I might scream in your ears (not on purpose of course). Ya. :D I had fun. There actually was a moment where I was so overwhelmed with see-ing them, that i wanted to cry. I just wanted to let it all out on how happy i was that I could lay my eyes on the group of people who have made such beautiful amazing music that i absolutely appreciate! sigh. It's love :) And ALSO I am so proud to say that I can now consider myself a TRUE Maroon 5 Fan.. why you ask? well this is due to the fact that when Adam Levine was 'introducing' the names of the band members I totally knew all their names. Adam was like "..this is our wicked drummer..." and then I shouted out " Matt Flynn" but everyone around me was like silent. In my head I was like ' I am such an awesome fan' :D ya well! wheee. :D
Today, I was in the train texting my lovely friend when this lady and her son come in. So they end up sitting in front of me. I was texting and then the little boy stood up on his chair and turned around and started staring at me. As much as i love children...it gets very weird for me to talk to strangers...no matter how old you are. So anyways I waved and smiled at the little boy and he continued staring. So I thought "well, I'm sure he likes angry birds" , so i started playing it and I showed him how to play it and in no time he was playing and we were high-5 ing each other. Then he came behind and sat with me.. yes his mother allowed. :) So then his mother ended up talking to me while he was playing. It was a very normal conversation. It was nice to have someone talk to me without judging me. :) She told me that she's a dancer and has been for 10 years. So I was like 'so cool!' lol. then she old me how the little boy was so pro in tchnology stuff. He's 3 years old by the way. and how they had an iPad but it 'rosak-ed' lol. Yes that conversation went fairly well and by the time they had to go I was all smiles and i waved at them. :D
Well then humans, bye bye :)
Then at about 9.45/9.50 Maroon 5 came out. They started of with Payphone. I loved it. I got so excited. Warning to anyone who decided to stand in front or behind me at a concert: If you stand behind me, I might jump and step on your toes. If you stand in front of me, I might scream in your ears (not on purpose of course). Ya. :D I had fun. There actually was a moment where I was so overwhelmed with see-ing them, that i wanted to cry. I just wanted to let it all out on how happy i was that I could lay my eyes on the group of people who have made such beautiful amazing music that i absolutely appreciate! sigh. It's love :) And ALSO I am so proud to say that I can now consider myself a TRUE Maroon 5 Fan.. why you ask? well this is due to the fact that when Adam Levine was 'introducing' the names of the band members I totally knew all their names. Adam was like "..this is our wicked drummer..." and then I shouted out " Matt Flynn" but everyone around me was like silent. In my head I was like ' I am such an awesome fan' :D ya well! wheee. :D
Today, I was in the train texting my lovely friend when this lady and her son come in. So they end up sitting in front of me. I was texting and then the little boy stood up on his chair and turned around and started staring at me. As much as i love children...it gets very weird for me to talk to strangers...no matter how old you are. So anyways I waved and smiled at the little boy and he continued staring. So I thought "well, I'm sure he likes angry birds" , so i started playing it and I showed him how to play it and in no time he was playing and we were high-5 ing each other. Then he came behind and sat with me.. yes his mother allowed. :) So then his mother ended up talking to me while he was playing. It was a very normal conversation. It was nice to have someone talk to me without judging me. :) She told me that she's a dancer and has been for 10 years. So I was like 'so cool!' lol. then she old me how the little boy was so pro in tchnology stuff. He's 3 years old by the way. and how they had an iPad but it 'rosak-ed' lol. Yes that conversation went fairly well and by the time they had to go I was all smiles and i waved at them. :D
Well then humans, bye bye :)
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Excitement :D
One day till Maroon 5. Dear god I'm so happy. TO add to that, my grades in college have been like in my terms" awesome" so far. Happiness. But we will not let overconfidence overcome us. I'm so happy damn it.
The weird thing about today's happiness:
I had an afternoon nap and it was a sad dream about me being at the airport and everyone there being mean to me and it end with me crying. So i wake up all of a sudden and I realize that I'm actually crying, with tears rolling down my face. So i breathe. Ya
Excitement, I hope I'll be able to sleep today! :D
Kay this was short. Good night.
The weird thing about today's happiness:
I had an afternoon nap and it was a sad dream about me being at the airport and everyone there being mean to me and it end with me crying. So i wake up all of a sudden and I realize that I'm actually crying, with tears rolling down my face. So i breathe. Ya
Excitement, I hope I'll be able to sleep today! :D
Kay this was short. Good night.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
not even worth a title
** Warning: content may have vulgar language and abortion issues and racial things**
*** YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED***
I wasn't planning on blogging today... Actually, I never plan to blog.. I just.. blog. But anyways, i was nearly going to not blog today when I suddenly decided to read the newspaper. The first thing i read was about a stupid idiot 20 year old woman who gives birth to a child in her apartment and then throws the child out of her window. What The F**k?!?!
I mean yes, you're not married and you had sex before marriage which goes against your religion and family and what not...but what gives you the right to kill an innocent child. To murder this child that didn't do anything.
For one, YOU had the child. YOU had sex. YOU kept the child for 9 months. YOU didn't think of adoption for the child. I wish I could call you a bitch. But as much as i hate how stupid and how bloody idiotic you could be, I can't call you a bitch. NO! This is not sympathy. I will never have sympathy for people who think that keeping a child in you for 9 months then giving birth and killing the child is right. NEVER.
This also brings up the case of abortion. I have a very mixed feeling about this topic. If you're a rape victim and you get a child out of it, then maybe, just maybe abortion, before.. if I'm not mistaken, 1 month of pregnancy is allowed. I mean, the child may be a symbol of how someone violated you. But the child also may be a symbol at how, you will get pass things. how you are strong. I don't know. ya... getting back to the topic, maybe the stupid female i was talking about, should have gotten an abortion? I know many disagree. If you are to get an abortion please don't exceed 2 months, because after 2 months, it's like you're killing a human.
However, that still doesn't give that idiot,disgrace to the female race, stupid female the right to kill her child. I mean... breathee... I just want to say, You are really stupid for killing your child, and no matter how much you pray to Allah, you're going to hell, you heartless shithead.
*** YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED***
I wasn't planning on blogging today... Actually, I never plan to blog.. I just.. blog. But anyways, i was nearly going to not blog today when I suddenly decided to read the newspaper. The first thing i read was about a stupid idiot 20 year old woman who gives birth to a child in her apartment and then throws the child out of her window. What The F**k?!?!
I mean yes, you're not married and you had sex before marriage which goes against your religion and family and what not...but what gives you the right to kill an innocent child. To murder this child that didn't do anything.
For one, YOU had the child. YOU had sex. YOU kept the child for 9 months. YOU didn't think of adoption for the child. I wish I could call you a bitch. But as much as i hate how stupid and how bloody idiotic you could be, I can't call you a bitch. NO! This is not sympathy. I will never have sympathy for people who think that keeping a child in you for 9 months then giving birth and killing the child is right. NEVER.
This also brings up the case of abortion. I have a very mixed feeling about this topic. If you're a rape victim and you get a child out of it, then maybe, just maybe abortion, before.. if I'm not mistaken, 1 month of pregnancy is allowed. I mean, the child may be a symbol of how someone violated you. But the child also may be a symbol at how, you will get pass things. how you are strong. I don't know. ya... getting back to the topic, maybe the stupid female i was talking about, should have gotten an abortion? I know many disagree. If you are to get an abortion please don't exceed 2 months, because after 2 months, it's like you're killing a human.
However, that still doesn't give that idiot,disgrace to the female race, stupid female the right to kill her child. I mean... breathee... I just want to say, You are really stupid for killing your child, and no matter how much you pray to Allah, you're going to hell, you heartless shithead.
Monday, September 17, 2012
A Monday.
I was watching Gossip Girl.. I'm not proud because I should have been studying Chemistry. I LIKE GOSSIP GIRL. It's just too addictive. BUT I have returned to studying. These reaction rates and stuff. I've got a test tomorrow. WOOHOO...no not really. :(
It's like this, i want to say things but I don't know how to put them down. In short, I don't know how to complain about myself and the person I am, at this moment. I mean, both you and I know that I am more than capable at complaining about said things, but today it just isn't flowing out like usual. Maybe I have nothing to complain about? I do. A few things.
I bought these shoes. They cost RM 200+. Now i regret. They hurt my feet. I'm so stupid sometimes. I wish I had really thought about them shows before buying them. I'd never tell my parents that I regret wearing them...I'd feel too guilty. I plan to endure the pain and act like those shoes are the best ones I've ever gotten. I need socks. Ankle high socks. What's so cool about these kind of socks anyways? I'm perfectly fine with wearing normal socks that go higher than one's ankle. But I find myself thinking that I'd be labelled geek or nerd if i were seen wearing normal socks. Seriously though, I should't care. I'm a loner and whatever I wear won't change the minds of these shallow minded human beings. I should wear whatever I want. Screw those who dislike or disagree with the things I choose, I am not defined by the things i choose to wear. Which is true, cause if you see the normal t-shirts I wear to college, and my beautiful hair..lol. I've got wild hair, which I don't bother to tame. I like my hair. It doesn't give me plus points at giving off clean but I prefer it this way.
There's going to be auditions for some Broadway production. There's auditions for those who'd like to sing and dance. I wish I had the time and courage to do it. You never know, I might be the female lead. but we'll never know, because I may think of wanting to try out by the truth is, I'd never do something like that. Singing in front of people isn't really my thing. Since I've never sung infront of anyone, hence I don't know if I have a good voice or not..and by the looks of it I will never know. But it's all for the best? I don't know.
A picture to show beauty perhaps, even though it has nothing to do with the topic? :P
It's like this, i want to say things but I don't know how to put them down. In short, I don't know how to complain about myself and the person I am, at this moment. I mean, both you and I know that I am more than capable at complaining about said things, but today it just isn't flowing out like usual. Maybe I have nothing to complain about? I do. A few things.
I bought these shoes. They cost RM 200+. Now i regret. They hurt my feet. I'm so stupid sometimes. I wish I had really thought about them shows before buying them. I'd never tell my parents that I regret wearing them...I'd feel too guilty. I plan to endure the pain and act like those shoes are the best ones I've ever gotten. I need socks. Ankle high socks. What's so cool about these kind of socks anyways? I'm perfectly fine with wearing normal socks that go higher than one's ankle. But I find myself thinking that I'd be labelled geek or nerd if i were seen wearing normal socks. Seriously though, I should't care. I'm a loner and whatever I wear won't change the minds of these shallow minded human beings. I should wear whatever I want. Screw those who dislike or disagree with the things I choose, I am not defined by the things i choose to wear. Which is true, cause if you see the normal t-shirts I wear to college, and my beautiful hair..lol. I've got wild hair, which I don't bother to tame. I like my hair. It doesn't give me plus points at giving off clean but I prefer it this way.
There's going to be auditions for some Broadway production. There's auditions for those who'd like to sing and dance. I wish I had the time and courage to do it. You never know, I might be the female lead. but we'll never know, because I may think of wanting to try out by the truth is, I'd never do something like that. Singing in front of people isn't really my thing. Since I've never sung infront of anyone, hence I don't know if I have a good voice or not..and by the looks of it I will never know. But it's all for the best? I don't know.
A picture to show beauty perhaps, even though it has nothing to do with the topic? :P
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. That, is something I will believe till the day i die. :)
Farewell everybody. Have a relaxing week.
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Not One of You.
'oh oh oh oh ohhh I'm in love with Judaaas Judaas"- Lady Gaga
We all have a question in our brains......not one question but many questions. Yet if there was a person who came up to you and told you that he had the answers to everything, would you ask him all those question? Would you use him like he wants you to or would you brush him off?
This feeling, has not exactly worn of yet. I'm questioning life. Sitting on my bed and just wasting my time, I think. "Why am I even alive?" " It's not like I'm doing anything useful. I feel numb. It's like I shouldn't but should in fact be here" but i will never know. Of course I'm a person who thinks about suicide.I've actually started to wonder if there is any person in the world who has never contemplated suicide..or at least thought about it. Just another wasted day in the life of being this human being.
Facebook, i was going through today. I saw many things which of course, ended up saddening me. Would you like to know? no? Well, I'm going to tell you anyway. The first thing was looking at photographs of this female i envy so much. I envy her because she's so pretty and because she knows who she is. She's got an amazing boyfriend and so may close friends and is admired because she is who she is..not giving a fuck about the world and all. sigh. The second thing was when i came across pictures of people having fun and socializing and wondering how they don't feel awkward in those situations. Such an anti-social, social anxiety-ed and depressing person I am. No wonder my friends are all distancing themselves from me. It may be for the best.
"oh my..that bitch with all her self pity...so tired of it. why can't she just shut the hell up. Nobody friggin cares. Go back to your f***ing corner and cry because that's the only thing you'll ever be good for..stupid bitch."
A picture for the unknowns?
We all have a question in our brains......not one question but many questions. Yet if there was a person who came up to you and told you that he had the answers to everything, would you ask him all those question? Would you use him like he wants you to or would you brush him off?
This feeling, has not exactly worn of yet. I'm questioning life. Sitting on my bed and just wasting my time, I think. "Why am I even alive?" " It's not like I'm doing anything useful. I feel numb. It's like I shouldn't but should in fact be here" but i will never know. Of course I'm a person who thinks about suicide.I've actually started to wonder if there is any person in the world who has never contemplated suicide..or at least thought about it. Just another wasted day in the life of being this human being.
Facebook, i was going through today. I saw many things which of course, ended up saddening me. Would you like to know? no? Well, I'm going to tell you anyway. The first thing was looking at photographs of this female i envy so much. I envy her because she's so pretty and because she knows who she is. She's got an amazing boyfriend and so may close friends and is admired because she is who she is..not giving a fuck about the world and all. sigh. The second thing was when i came across pictures of people having fun and socializing and wondering how they don't feel awkward in those situations. Such an anti-social, social anxiety-ed and depressing person I am. No wonder my friends are all distancing themselves from me. It may be for the best.
A picture for the unknowns?
Ya that looked kinda cool :)
Also, today is Tom Hardy's birthday.. you might know him as Bane from Batman. He's so sexy. I had a dream where he was going to kiss me, and then I woke up. Life is unfair sometimes, sigh. but to the ohsoveryamazinglysexy Tom Hardy, a happy happy birthday to you my love. :)
Isn't he just drool-worthy? *salivating* lol
Well then everybody, goodnight and happy Saturday :)
Friday, September 14, 2012
Too shy to say hello
Hello dear humans. What can I say? Nothing really.. sigh
To person 1:
I want you to follow me to the concert and i'm pushing you to come with me, not because i want the money for the tickets, but because I know I'll have more fun with you there with me. Seems like this pushing you to ask is annoying you and you're ignoring me. Stupid fool. I feel like I'm always there for you. I'm advicing and listening to your stories, which of course I don't mind, but sometimes it gets really hard for me and I need someone to help me. And the weird thing is whenever I feel that I need you most, you're not there for me. I get it. I do. And I have tried to distance myself and we ended up being normal again. It amazes me how the both of us can just ignore things and go back to normal. life...my life.
Today was ok? It was nice cause i slept and no regret. Tomorrow moral finals. i did study.. a bit. Dear God, just help me pass. Passing is enough for me. I don't want to resit the paper.
Maroon 5 in 6 days! I've been feeling really down for the past 2 days. The first day, i handled it by trying to call person 1 and talking, but person 1 was sleeping. So the pain was just all over. I slept that day with some tears because I felt like I couldn't breathe. The second day was much better. I decided that the world is a selfish place and that people suck, so I held my head high and walked like a boss. I mean college was ok.. i survived it but at home the pain and that hollow feeling came back, so I decided to download and watch The Voice 3. Dear god, the excitement for the Maroon 5 concert just came back. Watching Adam Levine and Blake and Christina and Cee Lo just made my day. I felt good and i realized I'll survive without going with person 1. It's Maroon 5! Even if i went with some random homeless guy, I'd still have fun. and so now I can't wait for Maroon 5. It's love i tell you.
Well then, back to studying moral :( Wish me luck! Farewell!
To person 1:
I want you to follow me to the concert and i'm pushing you to come with me, not because i want the money for the tickets, but because I know I'll have more fun with you there with me. Seems like this pushing you to ask is annoying you and you're ignoring me. Stupid fool. I feel like I'm always there for you. I'm advicing and listening to your stories, which of course I don't mind, but sometimes it gets really hard for me and I need someone to help me. And the weird thing is whenever I feel that I need you most, you're not there for me. I get it. I do. And I have tried to distance myself and we ended up being normal again. It amazes me how the both of us can just ignore things and go back to normal. life...my life.
Today was ok? It was nice cause i slept and no regret. Tomorrow moral finals. i did study.. a bit. Dear God, just help me pass. Passing is enough for me. I don't want to resit the paper.
Maroon 5 in 6 days! I've been feeling really down for the past 2 days. The first day, i handled it by trying to call person 1 and talking, but person 1 was sleeping. So the pain was just all over. I slept that day with some tears because I felt like I couldn't breathe. The second day was much better. I decided that the world is a selfish place and that people suck, so I held my head high and walked like a boss. I mean college was ok.. i survived it but at home the pain and that hollow feeling came back, so I decided to download and watch The Voice 3. Dear god, the excitement for the Maroon 5 concert just came back. Watching Adam Levine and Blake and Christina and Cee Lo just made my day. I felt good and i realized I'll survive without going with person 1. It's Maroon 5! Even if i went with some random homeless guy, I'd still have fun. and so now I can't wait for Maroon 5. It's love i tell you.
Well then, back to studying moral :( Wish me luck! Farewell!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Jibberishandfeverish
Today..yesterday has really been something else. I went of Mr D's memorial. It was good. When one of Mr D's colleague and friend talked and when he was crying, i was like on the verge of crying too. I mean, a person so close to you passed away and you have the courage and will to go up and speak.. That deserves respect right there. After the memorial we went for lunch then we hung out at the spot i go to every morning. Ya then I came home and slept for 2 hours.
As soon as i woke up i turned on me laptop and started with moral essay, then going on to bio blended learning then moral video. Now the cd is being burnt. Its 1.26 am and I'm going to die of sleepy-ness in college tomorrow. Can't wait for the next holiday! sigh. yes in my head it seems like today has been productive yet not productive enough. I've got 2 tests tomorrow. Damn it! I should stop leaving things to the last minute. Well whatever happens tomorrow, i just want you to know, I'm not giving up and that I will improve. Sigh..but you don't care.. well your choice.
That was short. farewell.
As soon as i woke up i turned on me laptop and started with moral essay, then going on to bio blended learning then moral video. Now the cd is being burnt. Its 1.26 am and I'm going to die of sleepy-ness in college tomorrow. Can't wait for the next holiday! sigh. yes in my head it seems like today has been productive yet not productive enough. I've got 2 tests tomorrow. Damn it! I should stop leaving things to the last minute. Well whatever happens tomorrow, i just want you to know, I'm not giving up and that I will improve. Sigh..but you don't care.. well your choice.
That was short. farewell.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Group Works
When one is in a group and well, you have to do a project or whatever, it may be hard if you're a push over like me. I'm not a COMPLETE push over but I have moments where I'm like "No I don't want to do that" in my head but in real life I'm like "sure". Seriously if you don't want to do something in a group then don't. It's your choice. Of course don't be completely selfish and DEMAND things. You just have to know when is the right time to want something and to agree to something even if you dislike it.
Anyways, I'm doing this compilation of an e-book that my group is supposed to do and told them to write one page long essays. I swear, for the past half hour of "editing" (more like typing out the whole f***ing essays for them) I've been swearing. I've been saying " Omg (insert name here) You are so f***ing stupid". I mean what in the world is wrong with these people?!? How can they be so stupid and so dumb.. I can't seem to remember any word that can describe how stupid and lazy and idiotic this girl is. I did ask her to elaborate, but the b***h ignored me.
And this is why everybody, I HATE GROUP WORK.
I used to think that being in a group and doing stuff was better and easier for me but seriously people have a way of irritating me and showing me how dumb they can be. Even the ones who can talk so much.. they're the worst. They talk and talk and talk but never do their work properly. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE??? HOW CAN THEY BE SO STUPID?!?!?!
Sigh...well that relieved some of my stress.. back to the work. later people!
Anyways, I'm doing this compilation of an e-book that my group is supposed to do and told them to write one page long essays. I swear, for the past half hour of "editing" (more like typing out the whole f***ing essays for them) I've been swearing. I've been saying " Omg (insert name here) You are so f***ing stupid". I mean what in the world is wrong with these people?!? How can they be so stupid and so dumb.. I can't seem to remember any word that can describe how stupid and lazy and idiotic this girl is. I did ask her to elaborate, but the b***h ignored me.
And this is why everybody, I HATE GROUP WORK.
I used to think that being in a group and doing stuff was better and easier for me but seriously people have a way of irritating me and showing me how dumb they can be. Even the ones who can talk so much.. they're the worst. They talk and talk and talk but never do their work properly. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE??? HOW CAN THEY BE SO STUPID?!?!?!
Sigh...well that relieved some of my stress.. back to the work. later people!
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
The game of life
I skipped college today. I skipped because I managed to convince myself that skipping for one day would be ok. And it is ok. I haven't skipped in like 2 months..more or less. But I still feel a bit bad and worried. It's very natural for me and yet i absolutely hate it.
Today I found out that a lecturer from my pre-u program passed away. It's a huge shock because, he always looked very put together. He looked kind-hearted and he looked like someone who could handle things..ya.. It seems that he passed away because he committed suicide. It's so terrible!! This takes 'don't judge a book by it's cover' to a whole new level. I feel so sad for him. How can a girl drive you to take your life away. :((( Sometimes life is just so terrible. Looking at how much I dislike my life... I start to wonder... Why take away lives of people who are actually doing good to the community, who are helping and giving to everyone.?
I don't want to write his name down, because I feel it a little disrespectful. I don't know why. I hope he rests in peace and i hope he knows that even though people like me did not personally know him and admired him from afar, we will always think of him and pray for him. You have done great and you will forever have a piece of our hearts. Thank you for helping us students and treating us as adults instead of mere students.
and i just want to say to who-ever who is going through relationship problems, you might think you really love someone and you might think that you can't live without them. But the truth is, YOU can! You can do anything. getting over someone might take sometime, but when you completely get over them you will see life in a new perspective and you will realize that person doesn't deserve the greatness that is YOU! Meaningful friendships and family are very good, because when your lover suddenly decides that you're not worth his/her time, friends and family will always be there to hold you upright and lead you the right way. You can do it! Live life the way you want it, don't waste a single day.
RIP Mr D!
:(((( You will forever be in our hearts.
**** The reason of his passing may be wrong, I am not sure. I apologize if it is. Today was very depressing and college felt like all the energy had been drained. Every one is mourning for his passing :( I hope we all are capable of getting through this together. for Mr. D :)
We're having a memorial for him at the main campus on Monday. I'm definitely going.
RIP Mr D!
Today I found out that a lecturer from my pre-u program passed away. It's a huge shock because, he always looked very put together. He looked kind-hearted and he looked like someone who could handle things..ya.. It seems that he passed away because he committed suicide. It's so terrible!! This takes 'don't judge a book by it's cover' to a whole new level. I feel so sad for him. How can a girl drive you to take your life away. :((( Sometimes life is just so terrible. Looking at how much I dislike my life... I start to wonder... Why take away lives of people who are actually doing good to the community, who are helping and giving to everyone.?
I don't want to write his name down, because I feel it a little disrespectful. I don't know why. I hope he rests in peace and i hope he knows that even though people like me did not personally know him and admired him from afar, we will always think of him and pray for him. You have done great and you will forever have a piece of our hearts. Thank you for helping us students and treating us as adults instead of mere students.
and i just want to say to who-ever who is going through relationship problems, you might think you really love someone and you might think that you can't live without them. But the truth is, YOU can! You can do anything. getting over someone might take sometime, but when you completely get over them you will see life in a new perspective and you will realize that person doesn't deserve the greatness that is YOU! Meaningful friendships and family are very good, because when your lover suddenly decides that you're not worth his/her time, friends and family will always be there to hold you upright and lead you the right way. You can do it! Live life the way you want it, don't waste a single day.
RIP Mr D!
:(((( You will forever be in our hearts.
**** The reason of his passing may be wrong, I am not sure. I apologize if it is. Today was very depressing and college felt like all the energy had been drained. Every one is mourning for his passing :( I hope we all are capable of getting through this together. for Mr. D :)
We're having a memorial for him at the main campus on Monday. I'm definitely going.
RIP Mr D!
Monday, September 3, 2012
Limerance
Now, this word means, an attempt at scientific study into the nature of romantic love. :)
Parents are coming back tomorrow morning. Tuesday morning. I wish I didn't have to go to college. I wish i could just skip. I'm too lazy for this life anyways. :(
Thinking about Maroon 5 is getting me more excited. The concerts in 17 days!!! I can't focus on anything. All I keep thinking about is what I'm going to wear and praying that I get there early so that my friend and I can stand right in front. The excitement is awesome. I went last year but we didn't actually get awesome seats. :( the place we were sitting at had lots of idiots who wanted to sit down and watch. WTF?! They probably got free tickets and didn't want to go! It's a concert dumbasses! You're supposed to jump up and down and frigging enjoy every second of it. Stupid human beings. Anyone who gets angry at me for having fun for this concert will be given the bitch face and will be completely ignored. So screw you if you try ruining my mood on the day.
Also, if I'm not wrong, The Cab will be performing. I've listened to some of their songs. They are actually not bad. I'm starting to like them.
Things to do:
- Finish moral essays
- Finish moral video
Things happening tomorrow:
- Bio
- Chem
- Data Management (LOVE)
- Moral -_- ( Hate)
Sooo can i skip?? sigh If only! :(
Parents are coming back tomorrow morning. Tuesday morning. I wish I didn't have to go to college. I wish i could just skip. I'm too lazy for this life anyways. :(
Thinking about Maroon 5 is getting me more excited. The concerts in 17 days!!! I can't focus on anything. All I keep thinking about is what I'm going to wear and praying that I get there early so that my friend and I can stand right in front. The excitement is awesome. I went last year but we didn't actually get awesome seats. :( the place we were sitting at had lots of idiots who wanted to sit down and watch. WTF?! They probably got free tickets and didn't want to go! It's a concert dumbasses! You're supposed to jump up and down and frigging enjoy every second of it. Stupid human beings. Anyone who gets angry at me for having fun for this concert will be given the bitch face and will be completely ignored. So screw you if you try ruining my mood on the day.
Also, if I'm not wrong, The Cab will be performing. I've listened to some of their songs. They are actually not bad. I'm starting to like them.
Things to do:
- Finish moral essays
- Finish moral video
Things happening tomorrow:
- Bio
- Chem
- Data Management (LOVE)
- Moral -_- ( Hate)
Sooo can i skip?? sigh If only! :(
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Lackadaisical
Supposedly from the "cool" dictionary.. it is actually another word for lazy. Which, I must say, suits me very well.
Today was a lazy day ( happy points for making the title somewhat relate able to the post itself :D )
I watched, American wedding. Lol so funny..and very wrong :P I also watched, Empire Records. I really liked it. A very awesome movie! I liked how everything was laid-back and the whole scene was just fun :) Yep... I did do my bio homework, which is an awesome accomplishment. Now I have to finish moral. But I'm probably gonna leave that to the last minute.
You know, karma is really something. I believe in karma. but anyways, I want to talk about luck. Some people are just destined to win things and have things go their way and others actually have to hope and pray. I want to know if karma has anything to do with this. People who have loads of friends and are smart and can talk and all that actually get good things but average human beings who would have some friends and are averagely smart and isn't really good in social situations, they get to watch these 'other' people get whatever they want. It's unfair. I'm allowed to complain because I can. Sometimes I just wonder...what do these people do for them to get all the good luck for them to be "cool". Why don't the normal ones ever get to be 'cool'. People suck. I've already mentioned that.
Well..I have nothing else to write about. Back to my movies. Farewell.
Today was a lazy day ( happy points for making the title somewhat relate able to the post itself :D )
I watched, American wedding. Lol so funny..and very wrong :P I also watched, Empire Records. I really liked it. A very awesome movie! I liked how everything was laid-back and the whole scene was just fun :) Yep... I did do my bio homework, which is an awesome accomplishment. Now I have to finish moral. But I'm probably gonna leave that to the last minute.
You know, karma is really something. I believe in karma. but anyways, I want to talk about luck. Some people are just destined to win things and have things go their way and others actually have to hope and pray. I want to know if karma has anything to do with this. People who have loads of friends and are smart and can talk and all that actually get good things but average human beings who would have some friends and are averagely smart and isn't really good in social situations, they get to watch these 'other' people get whatever they want. It's unfair. I'm allowed to complain because I can. Sometimes I just wonder...what do these people do for them to get all the good luck for them to be "cool". Why don't the normal ones ever get to be 'cool'. People suck. I've already mentioned that.
Well..I have nothing else to write about. Back to my movies. Farewell.
Carte Blanche
It means the freedom to act..complete rein. Nope, it's got nothing to do with my post. The reason why I gave you the meaning was because.. if you were actually looking for the meaning and you thought that you clicked on the right link but you end up on my blog, then you'd feel irritated cause you stumbled upon a blog about a girl who has no idea where she's going with this. Ok let me make this simple, urm i didn't want to waste your time. Yup that's it.
Well hello dear readers, lol... I ain't got no readers. buuuut anyways, hello! It has been an interesting week filled with interesting things. The first week back from a week long holiday. I mean it's ok... nothing much happened. same old same old.
My sister's left for medical college. I cried.. can you believe it. First one to cry in fact. We may have not been sooo close but we are close-ish. I mean it's not like we share everything and tell each other everything.. It's more like I respect her and she knows it. lol. I am most definitely going to miss her. Yep. The fact that it's not the same with my younger sister is kinda sad. She makes me so angry. She's so stubborn and has no respect and is so naive. I can't become close to her and I'm not even going to try. I have tried trust me. Talking to her is like talking to a rock...no talking to a rock would be better -_-
I'm weird and I think I am starting to accept it. Instead of taking a taxi everyday from the train station to college like normal human beings, I walk. Yes i walk for 15-20 minutes every morning to get to college. Recently I found out 2 guys from the same course I'm doing, take the train at the same time as me and instead of walking, they pay RM 3 for a taxi from the train station to college. I mean, I'd love to take the taxi but my weirdness and my attitude of not liking to make conversation with people I don't know has prevented me from that. I've been walking for 6 months.. I think I can handle another 6 :) I find this semester to be much more better. I'm enjoying it. I just need to keep studying and finishing my work. I can get through this... I hope.
Yes today I'm not as pessimistic as I usually am. That will come back soon. Don't miss it too much. :P I'm cheerful because of today's public holiday! :) I wasted the day watching Melissa and Joey! So nice to watch! :) luckily, there's no test yet? hmm.
Well that's the update... more or less. I recommend Train - 50 Ways To Say Goodbye! <3 love="love" p="p">
Well hello dear readers, lol... I ain't got no readers. buuuut anyways, hello! It has been an interesting week filled with interesting things. The first week back from a week long holiday. I mean it's ok... nothing much happened. same old same old.
My sister's left for medical college. I cried.. can you believe it. First one to cry in fact. We may have not been sooo close but we are close-ish. I mean it's not like we share everything and tell each other everything.. It's more like I respect her and she knows it. lol. I am most definitely going to miss her. Yep. The fact that it's not the same with my younger sister is kinda sad. She makes me so angry. She's so stubborn and has no respect and is so naive. I can't become close to her and I'm not even going to try. I have tried trust me. Talking to her is like talking to a rock...no talking to a rock would be better -_-
I'm weird and I think I am starting to accept it. Instead of taking a taxi everyday from the train station to college like normal human beings, I walk. Yes i walk for 15-20 minutes every morning to get to college. Recently I found out 2 guys from the same course I'm doing, take the train at the same time as me and instead of walking, they pay RM 3 for a taxi from the train station to college. I mean, I'd love to take the taxi but my weirdness and my attitude of not liking to make conversation with people I don't know has prevented me from that. I've been walking for 6 months.. I think I can handle another 6 :) I find this semester to be much more better. I'm enjoying it. I just need to keep studying and finishing my work. I can get through this... I hope.
Yes today I'm not as pessimistic as I usually am. That will come back soon. Don't miss it too much. :P I'm cheerful because of today's public holiday! :) I wasted the day watching Melissa and Joey! So nice to watch! :) luckily, there's no test yet? hmm.
Well that's the update... more or less. I recommend Train - 50 Ways To Say Goodbye! <3 love="love" p="p">
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