OMG.....GAH

Don't ever get your hopes up. Like ever. I mean what's the point? You expect someone to do something with you and as always that someone lets you down. People are like that. You should never expect a lot. You should always expect the littlest to come from every greeting. People don't care if they hurt your feelings or any one else's in fact. People don't bloody have to care and you shouldn't have to depend on them. If you want something, do it yourself. Don't depend on ass faces to do it for you. And when a time comes where you forget this, don't worry, because people around you will remind you that you really shouldn't depend on them because they're not worth it.

I dislike social events. Actually I like them but I'm bad at being at them. I'm the one that will answer when questioned but for the life of me I can't start a conversation and it sucks big time. I'm not the charmer of the family. I'm the one who doesn't want to be seen. I want people to just leave me alone.  I don't have a reason to why I want to be what I want to be.

There's nothing else for me to be and this is the best isn't it? Well, screw that. I'll just be this and if I suck at it then I would've officially f***ed my life up and well i'll die in a hole or something. One thing's for sure is that I will do whatever to be good because even though I'm wasting my life now, I can still be good when the time comes. I will work hard damn it and I will try my best to be the best that i can be and I hope for the life of me that i will be able to make friends. Of course I won't be as amazing as her but, I will try my best.

They say this is the time where you make your life. to me it's like I've already lived and what I need to do now is die. But obviously He doesn't want that for me and for the moment I am fine with that. I need to do something. I'm so bored, I'm actually getting better at typing on my laptop. LOL yes, I'm on the internet a lot nowadays but that's life for the moment. I should prepare myself for loneliness in college. OH MY GOD IF I DON"T GET ANY FRIENDS I WILL.......i will... nothing. I'll live with it and probably die of depression. Sigh, I can see it now. I'm going to be the shame of the family. But what did anyone expect. For me to be amazing. Lol joke of the century. OK then I think I have ranted much.

Farewell humans. :)