Change for who?

So, today I was called beautiful. Interesting feeling when someone compliments you. I came back home and I looked at my face and asked myself "What do they see that I don't see?". I made up my mind that my hair looked nice but my face..yeck...hmmmm...yes, I am too self conscious but the difference between me and the rest of the world is that I don't do anything about my look. I may hate it and myself, but I feel like if you don't like this version of me, then you probably won't like all the other versions of me.

People change. I think for normal people, these changes happen gradually. Unfortunately a person close to me is changing and instead of the normal gradual change, its the sudden out of the blue change. I don't know if I should accept it. This person is probably doing it to punish herself and is trying to be a good girlfriend. I think it's stupid because we're all still young and that we should do whatever that young people are supposed to do. We should do things that we won't be able to enjoy when we're old. I just want to try things out. See if I like them. If I don't, then at least I've already tried them. I won't wonder about it and I won't regret not doing them. She said.. "it's not me.I don't think I'll fit in. I'd rather be alone". This was sudden, considering that we've been planning to do this for some time now. In all truth I am angry and really disappointed. I don't know whether I should accept it or get all bitchy in her face. I should probably just accept it right? I shouldn't care. It's her life. She can go ahead and choose whatever she wants, but I choose to know how different things are. I don't want to be in the dark. Another part of me thinks, maybe this friendship wasn't meant to last for so long. Maybe it should have ended long ago. But then it doesn't feel right. I don't know. I should wait things out and see how they are. Well, life goes on right?

And I shall leave you with that. :)
Farewell humans.