You opened my eyes.

Yes, I know, I've abandoned you for a week+ ..I am sorry. But I just haven't had the mood. I mean sometimes I DO blog even if I don't have the mood, but the posts end up being very.. I don't know.. not fulfilling(?!)
I had a very full-ish day. Woke up at 9 believe it or not, then I went for a carnival. It was fun. No hot guys...but who am I to judge. I'm not hot myself so meh. not even cute... Terrible person I am. sigh

Well the carnival was alright, I took care of my cousins and watched them play games. I didn't mind. I loves them very much. Little devils they are :D Ya so I came back and I wanted to sleep but then I decided the day is still young, what better to do then watch a movie with theverysexy Hrithik Roshan in it. So i did that.
Name of the movie: Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara
Its beautiful. Can you call a movie beautiful? It was just really...It made me want to really live. It made me want to be free. It touched my mind and heart and I just fell in love. It was something to think about. I shouldn't hype it up so much because, if you watch the movie expecting something and you don't get it..you'll be disappointed. For me, it was just a....real movie. As you can see, it really affected me... But how long will it last...how long will the effect of the movie have on me before I go back to not thinking that way....

Well, life goes on and we be who we be. I feel sad. I feel that there should be more to life? I feel that we should be able to really feel the depth of life and the beauty life is. This is very hypocritical of me since I dislike myself. My life is amazing. I'm so lucky to be born into this family and to have all these talents. The problem is me. I am the one who stops myself from being what my inner soul really is. I stop myself because I'm afraid and because I'm shy and paranoid and anti social and I just don't fit in. If only I had the confidence to be who I really was meant to be, then maybe i could love myself..just maybe. But for now this introverted person who wants more in life will remain. For how long? Well that's for me to figure out I guess.

I hope that if you happen to come across this blog you feel inspired by this post to look for the secrets life hides from us. I hope you look for what really matters and live life the way destiny chooses for you. For now, farewell :)