The game of life

I skipped college today. I skipped because I managed to convince myself that skipping for one day would be ok. And it is ok. I haven't skipped in like 2 months..more or less. But I still feel a bit bad and worried. It's very natural for me and yet i absolutely hate it.

Today I found out that a lecturer from my pre-u program passed away. It's a huge shock because, he always looked very put together. He looked kind-hearted and he looked like someone who could handle things..ya.. It seems that he passed away because he committed suicide. It's so terrible!! This takes 'don't judge a book by it's cover' to a whole new level. I feel so sad for him. How can a girl drive you to take your life away. :((( Sometimes life is just so terrible. Looking at how much I dislike my life... I start to wonder... Why take away lives of people who are actually doing good to the community, who are helping and giving to everyone.?
I don't want to write his name down, because I feel it a little disrespectful. I don't know why. I hope he rests in peace and i hope he knows that even though people like me did not personally know him and admired him from afar, we will always think of him and pray for him. You have done great and you will forever have a piece of our hearts. Thank you for helping us students and treating us as adults instead of mere students.

and i just want to say to who-ever who is going through relationship problems, you might think you really love someone and you might think that you can't live without them. But the truth is, YOU can! You can do anything. getting over someone might take sometime, but when you completely get over them you will see life in a new perspective and you will realize that person doesn't deserve the greatness that is YOU! Meaningful friendships and family are very good, because when your lover suddenly decides that you're not worth his/her time, friends and family will always be there to hold you upright and lead you the right way. You can do it! Live life the way you want it, don't waste a single day.

RIP Mr D!
:(((( You will forever be in our hearts.


**** The reason of his passing may be wrong, I am not sure. I apologize if it is. Today was very depressing and college felt like all the energy had been drained. Every one is mourning for his passing :( I hope we all are capable of getting through this together. for Mr. D :)

We're having a memorial for him at the main campus on Monday. I'm definitely going.

RIP Mr D!