Regret- one of many

I remember promising that we would be friends till forever. I remember being so certain about our friendship. I remember you worrying about us while i was confident about us. I also remember when i realised i wanted to change. I remembered placing new things before you. I remember trying to get along with the people you called friends. We were two different human beings. You liked the ones who spoke like they were high and mighty while i preferred the ones who were real. The ones who seemingly wouldn't back stab me. Even before the only reason i was accepted into the 'cool' group was because of you. You gave me the chance to live the life of someone who had friends from both groups..you might say.

Don't get me wrong, I liked the attention, hated the drama. They knew i was not so called 'high-class' just the same as i did. You are the kind of friend that should be kept but i let you go, because i wanted to see how it would be if i were alone. I took the chance to change. I did. And i regret because i know i hurt you. and for that i will never forgive myself. I have apologized to you and i really do mean it. I really am sorry of the person that i was and even sorrier for the person that i have become.

But life goes one. Losing you was a mistake, apologizing was the right thing but nothing can ever ease the guilt that i have for leaving you, for not keeping my promise, because you were one of my best-est friends. I do love you cause I only have you to thank for the person i was but I only have me to blame for the person that i have become.

The best thing to do would be to forget you. Because its all over and its never going to be like how it used to be. Be happy. Live goes on and it won't stop even if you make the smallest or biggest mistake. Live it like how you would want to live it.